I actually have nothing to do now.
SO BORED. Omgosh, I hate you guys for cancelling Harry Potter.
I HAVE NOTHING TO DO NOW ARGH.

I am actually so screwed for HSC. I just can't study. If I do get into my study mode what's the point? It goes scurrying away as soon as I walk into the exam room. Fuck fuck fuck. What do I do.

Fuck fuck fuck,
I fucked up.

THIS IS ALL TOOO STRESSFUL.

You've made me a lot happier.

So on Sunday, I got tipsy for the first time in EVEEEER! Omgosh, it felt so gooooood. Just being happy, but being quiet, being crazy, you know the drill, etcetc. So excited for after the HSC... ARGH!
While I was tipsy () came, and he just held me... It felt so nice. For someone to just hold me like that. We didn't even need to talk. Too bad I can't express my feelings.

240411 - Fast five, Nando's, Chinese Gardens, Norita.

Why can't I believe...
So you call me last night. And you tell me that you like me.
Why can't I say it back? I ask him, does it annoy you that I can't say that back?
No, he replies. Why not? Because I know you do, and I don't want you to push yourself into saying it. ARGH. Why can't I just say it. My 'not being able to express my feelings' disease kills me sometimes. ARGH. WHYHWYHWYHWYHWYHWYHWYHY!